For a while now, I've literally come to complete stop when I think about updating my blog. I vividly remember the days when I'd write 5-7 blogs in a week. Of course I do, it was like 6 months ago. Ever since my life turned upside down and split off into 14 different directions, it's been more and more difficult for me to find the words to put here. On a day to day basis, I am a wife and a mom, a community activist and a connection point for other moms, a friend and a church planter. Obviously, a completely inactive, boring life, right? To be honest, I'm still trying to find that balance. Most of the time I'm flying from one thing to the next without a second to slow down and get a quick whiff of the coffee.
This week alone, we have meetings in our house every single night (except Friday & then it's prayer meeting at Sarah's). Last night was the Whisler cabinet meeting, today is playgroup, and then tonight is our street rep social for our neighborhood. Tomorrow is the Whisler communications meeting and Thursday is Bible study. Don't get me wrong, I love every second of it, and happen to have the most supportive husband who allows it all to occur. What would I do without him?
Even with all this commotion, I still can't find a single thing to write about. Right now, I want to backspace to the beginning and start over. Where is my mojo? Normally I sit down and start typing and it just all comes together. But maybe with the lack of direction comes a lack of motivation. The reason I haven't been updating often is that I'm not really inspired to write anything. And when I am, I suddenly get really busy, time passes, and then it just doesn't seem so inspiring after all. Have you guys ever been there?
I thought maybe this would get me over the hump. You know, like when you work out. You dread it, make excuses, eat cake instead. Then finally, you force yourself into your gym shorts and onto the Elliptical (or the Expresso Recumbent Bike Experience in my case) and you just do it. At the end, you feel invigorated, energized, and ready to go again. That's what this entry is about for me; I'm pushing through hoping that at the end, I will feel invigorated, energized and ready to go again.
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