And what a day it's been. At 9:30 this morning, we headed in to see Dr. Bernard. She checked me here and there and everywhere. It seems that we've made a little progress, about 1/2 a cm or so. Good to know that days and days of contractions have helped move things along(ish).
"So what's next Doc, seeing as I am still pregnant at 40 weeks? Can we induce (break my water) tomorrow?"
Doc leaves the room to make a phone call. When she returns she has that look on her face. You know the look I speak of, right? The one where you know you are not going to like the answer. It seems that through this process nobody thought to check with the hospital to see if they would allow the induction with all their bureaucratic B.S. and liability mumbo jumbo. So Doc put in the request for approval, but either way, it wasn't happening tomorrow. She also asked me to stay and be monitored for a little while to make sure the baby is doing good and all. Neil took me back to the house so I could pick up his truck and return to be monitored. He took the boys to the Science Center (which by the way, did you know that if you're a Zoo member, you get to go to the Science Center for free during Jan/Feb?).
Baby monitoring went well. She "peaked" several times, whatever that means, and I was free to go. Before I left, Doc caught me and told me that the induction had been approved and scheduled for 8:00 am on Weds. The good news is that I have 6 days to get this child out of me before they induce. The bad news is if she doesn't come on her own in the next 6 days, I have to continue to be miserable for 6 days. So here's what I need you to do for me. Please pray with us that she comes on her own this weekend. It might seem selfish, but it really would work out better for everyone involved if she could come now rather than later.
My faith is a little weak right now. I guess I can admit that. Emotionally and physically I'm spent. In fact, I fear my faith my not even reach the mustard seed requirement. So I guess that is why I'm reaching out to all of you...to have the faith for me that by weekend end, I will be holding her in my arms, a healthy baby girl.
Thanks for joining me in this journey. It's a rough road especially when you feel alone.
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